why are things reverting back to the way they were once before? when you didnt care. should i not care? i think i should. 
what i should really do is just start talking to you less. start caring less. cause the less i care, the less i get hurt right?

right. 

im sorry. just, havent been heartbroken in awhile so im not on here as much? this also gets rather neglected due to tumblr.

LKL; darling oh darling. i know we constantly flirt, i know i have a boyfriend, you know that as well. i feel like sometimes im leading you on, but ive already told you that its just all fun and games. although i wont deny my attraction towards you, its purely just sexually physical, but innocent, if that even makes sense at all. you should very well know that we have no other kind of connection aside from that. we'll never be anything. and ive told you that, but sometimes i really wonder if youre okay with all of this.

i keep having dreams of talking to you.

four today: everytime i closed my eyes, they would appear. then id wake up and have to remind myself constantly, 'it wasnt real, it was just a dream k,' then id fall asleep again only to dream of the same thing - talking to you, and from there life went on repeat for the next five hours.